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i am so happy right now

what the hell

it is not okay how much of an effect he has on me. it really isn’t.

fun. has become my go-to band, and it sucks because their songs would actually be really helpful right now, but i can’t listen to them without thinking of you.

the worst is the gambler, because i associate it with no one else but you. AND it’s a love song, to top it all off. at least the others i can attribute to friends.

i guess deep down inside, what i want is for us to get back together. but i know that that isn’t going to happen, and it would be tainted because i’d think it’s all one-sided again anyway.

i don’t know if i can manage it in four weeks, but i really wish i could fall out of love with you by the end of the semester. i would like to be friends by the time summer starts

i don’t know what to do i just feel like someone’s shot a hole through my chest and i feel pinned and i don’t knwo what to do i can’t go to sleep because all i will think about is how much i wish he were with me and i can’t stay awake because all i can think about is how much i wish i never met him and it hurts so much to even consider the possibilities and i’m just so stupid why did i send those texts to him

i’m so fucking stupid why did i text him again why do i do this to myself

what the fuck was the point of that conversation

one positive side effect is that I’ve lost my appetite

lost four pounds in the last three days

maybe this is actually for the best

i am so fucking stupid.

why am i wasting so much of my time on someone who doesn’t want anything to do with me?

i am dying to talk to you

It is a little hard to listen to music now, because so many songs and bands remind me of you.

I have cried a lot less today than I did yesterday or the day before.

I have such lovely friends, and I could not be more grateful to have these wonderful people in my life.

He may be an asshole, but I don’t hate him and I don’t want to cut him completely out of my life.

I know what I want. I want to keep him as a friend, because I still care about him and his happiness. The problem is I am still in love with him right now. It’s going to be hard. But I want things to be okay between us, and I want him in my life. I’ll just take it a day at a time and try my best to remember that life goes on.

Look at how much I’m still thinking about him — enough for me to make this post, enough for me to spend the time and effort to find all the signs that pointed to this.

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